We just got down from our first week of rock work on the Israel Ridge Trail, building and repairing stone staircases and drainages. Four of us were camped several miles in, up by the first cascade. It was a pretty wet week, and at times the work moved slowly as we all remembered and learned how to work with rock, but it was still a lot of fun. Here’s something I wrote on Thursday night after the we made dinner and watched the sun set from on the rock by the cascade. I just meant to put down a few quick thoughts my my journal but I just kept writing…
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Benzo’s been reading Ed Abbey’s Desert Solitaire aloud in the evenings. It’s great writing, and one of the few books which I’d like to own a copy of, even after having read it once. I wish I could describe trail crew and the White Mountains as eloquently as Abbey describes the Southwest, and with as much detail.
Some moments are easier to describe; I know how to start with the sunset or a clearing rainstorm. Those moments of peace after a day of work, like bathing in a stream or watching clouds blow by overhead are a big part of what keeps me coming back year after year.
But it’s also about the chapped hands and the dirt that never quite washes of all summer and the blisters that form on top of blisters. I guess you sort of start to take pride in that stuff. And the rank, moldy smell when you open your backpack after it’s rained for a week straight? That’s part of it. And getting mud in your food, having gas from eating 3,500 calories a day, telling dirty jokes, cussing at that rock that just won’t go where you want it to… it’s all inseparable from the experience. And in a certain sense, it’s all beautiful. But it sure is hard to make that make sense to people if they’ve never worked up here. I wish I could describe it all in detail in a way that would make sense, but it just wouldn’t translate.
Sometimes it’s hard to say what it is that keeps me coming back here. (3 summers with the RMC and two before that, first as a volunteer with AMC and then with the Student Conservation Association.) Even as it becomes clear to me that the tendinitis in my wrists is getting worse and even as I find myself shopping for things like knee braces and ibuprofen with increasing frequency, I whole-heartedly feel like it’s worth it.
Undoubtedly, a big part of it is the awesome people I’ve worked with. Part of it is the intense satisfaction that comes from doing physical labor, especially when you know that some of your work will last 40, 50, or maybe even 100 years. (How cool is it to think that we’ll probably be able to show our grandkids the staircases and waterbars we built?) Certainly this place is beautiful, with its sunsets and fog and waterfalls and lichen-covered cliffs and the tiny water droplets on the needles of spruce trees after it rains.
Every year, these mountains feel more and more like home to me. Today while looking my copy of the RMC map, I realized that I know almost every mile of trail on the map and I can picture nearly every section in my head. I’m learning more and more of the trees around here. Spruce, hemlock, silver birch, and the mountain ash which has big clusters of white flowers this time of year.
But there’s still something more; something that’s harder to put a finger on. It’s in the bright undercast mornings above tree line and the lights of Route 2 as seen from the Quay at twilight just as much as it’s in the sweaty, desperate moment when you finally find that perfect rock where you can rest your packboard without toppling over, or when the last step in that staircase clunks perfectly into place.
I guess that despite all of the hours at work spent daydreaming about delicious food, friends from home, and dry clothes, it’s all worth it for the times when I’m consciously aware that in that moment there is nowhere, absolutely no place in the entire world where I’d rather be. Those are the moments that keep me coming back.
And I hope I never regret it. I hope that in 20, 30, 40 years as I get older and (prematurely) arthritic I’ll still look back fondly on these memories and I hope that my double bit axe and my Limmers will still be among my most valued possessions.
-Ben








